The sadness we feel for happy memories

RSS Archive

"My real self wanders elsewhere, far away, wanders on and on invisibly and has nothing to do with my life."

I'm Jade, I'm 21, & I'm about to graduate. What comes next? I aspire to make all my dreams come true, work hard & volunteer to help & support all sorts of people. I want to be someone who makes people believe that there are good people out there. I know a part of me won't be filled until I do. I want to be a good person.
Other than that, like many, my dream is to travel the world, & to have a flat stomach. I have a bucket list that is a mile long & I'm determined to tick everything off.
^My biggest fear is that I wont ever do all of the above^ & wasps/bees.
I'm trying to figure out who I am, & find parts of me that I've lost along the way, which is all part of the adventure. However, I know I'll always be a kid at heart.<3
I would lose my mind without music, my world life revolves around it. I can be taken back to a certain point in my life and express my mood through just a song.
My main motto is to be kind, and good hearted. My day can be made by a total stranger saying "hello", being polite or helping me in the smallest way.
I love the small things in life: tea, kisses on the cheek, letters, how summer smells, blue eyes, laughter, great friendships & the feeling of finishing something.
I constantly believe and fear that I am not living my life as well as I could. I feel I should be out there doing something all the time. I live vicariously a lot regretfully.
I am amazed by the ocean, stars, skylines, city/fairy lights, antiques, the sound of waves, people's generosity, piano music & how small new-borns toes & fingers are.
The way into my heart is comedy, a Chinese buffet, the beach, a trip to a fair/theme park/seaside, Disney, pick 'n' mix, fancy dress, road trips & buying me silly socks.
I love "remember when's" and I hate unfinished business.
I'm terrible with goodbyes, & it takes me ages to let go of something/someone no matter how big or small the nature of it was.
I stare out windows and lay in bed replaying past events over & over in my head, or day dreaming about the future. Usually a heavy mixture of both.
I have a post card collection in which I buy a post card from every town/city/place I go to, as well as my friends and family buying me them too.<3
Oh, and I think I may have a slight sixth sense.

*Make a wish and place it in your heart <3*

Ask me anything Submit

February 20, 2012

I really wanna do this one day. I can’t surf. But I’d like to try. Even if it’s just for the day. But I would love to wake up every morning, somewhere hot, and close to a beach. And go down to the beach every morning and just lay on a surf board for a while when it’s really peaceful and quiet.

(Source: synodik, via losinghope-feelingdope)

5:45pm | URL: http://tmblr.co/ZbjdqxGj-D66

(Notes: 16,042)